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Jerald W. Blackstock

We spoke on the phone. I was in her favourite cafe that she told me about years ago. It is close to my gym, quiet and a good place to write. I thought I would try it out and while sitting there Sheri’s phone number popped in my head. So I called it.

I have been doing this for 40 years off and on, calling Sheri. We have had talks that went on for hours. She never once called back. Once we had abysmal drunken sex and have never had companionship. Once I managed to get her to attend a…


“Alcoholics Anonymous holds the copyright on the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions; you will need first to secure permission in writing from AA (Alcoholics Anonymous, P.O. Box 459, Grand Central Station, New York, NY 10163) to use the Steps or Traditions.” — Google search snippet.

OK! AA is a company, a business. The involving trust, especially with regard to the relationship between a trustee and a beneficiary, is that a company has a fiduciary duty to shareholders, the responsibility of a business to create a profit.

The responsibility of AA isn’t to help people. In fact, according to Gabrielle Glaser/The…


In 2003 I formally changed from working as a professional artist (c.v.) whose work was making objects for limited sale in galleries to one whose work became primarily digital and available to the entire world on the internet. For Free. I do have work for sale at Fine Art America if you want a print, and I publish art books on Google and Amazon, but there are no gatekeepers with an agenda that is not in my best interests. Photographize publishes me to millions simply because they like my work, and I love their magazine. They show less than 3%…


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The ashram had nothing to offer, they exist to consume not give. Overvalue, undervalue, dump, smear. The narcissists M.O. I went from ‘a being of Divine Light’, an initiated yogi, to we’re not taking his calls. I was moved to the expense side of the ledger. Again, I was devastated.

This is the story of my deprogramming and recovery using the tools I was given freely by the medical system.

Jerald received a diploma[1] in painting at the Alberta College of Art and Design [2] studying in studio art from 1992…


I keep running into this concept. For instance, I had dinner with a social worker, anxious about meeting me in public off a dating site. She said she was recommending mindfulness meditation to all her clients for their anxiety

I asked, ‘How do you do it?’. She didn’t know. Take a course I guess.

Turns out you focus on the here and now. Much like driving. It’s sold as a cure for anxiety and depression.

At one time I taught heavy equipment driving as one of my day gigs as an artist. …


I’ve been having a series of psychological breakthroughs recently, one thing leads to another, one step after the other, not so much ‘what is the next step?’ of creative decision making, but, this is the next step, of my health recovery.

It started with the reflection: why do I need people who don’t like me or who don’t have anything to offer, to like me? Then, why do I need anyone to like me? What does anyone have to offer that I need as an adult? Communication, companionship and sex are pretty much freely available, talk to strangers, ask for…


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I was 64, a typical artist who supported himself with teaching adults gigs at the art school, the university, and as a volunteer art therapist at long-term care. None of these gig economy rackets pay the rent. So I worked in another gig economy doing courier from the hospital for Alberta Health, paid by the piece, no benefits, provide my own car, everything from vaccines to doctors to thousands of pounds of dialysis liquids to patients in their homes.

Then I had the most common serious injury, for no known reason with no known treatment, that happens at…


I am a 3rd generation Albertan my grandfather homesteaded near Turner Valley, I was moved to Calgary when I was 2 after a family tragedy. I learned to skate and swim at the City of Calgary Mount Pleasant facility.

Well sort of.

Skating mostly involved trying to avoid bullies at the unsupervised rinks, and swimming, although they had lifeguards was fraught with danger, I almost drowned, twice.

Basically, it’s a show up with your family and have your family protect you because the City isn’t taking any responsibility. …

Jerald W. Blackstock

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