Unconditional

I found myself feeling depressed and anxious this week similar to what I often felt since being traumatized by a homeless man who threw me down and broke my hip and elbow this past summer. I’ve been getting better.

Then I remembered that healing takes time.

The triggering events were actions (not being liked) by a couple of people that I decided not to associate with, not being on speaking terms, by my choice.

I mean my entire emotional event was due to an irrational ‘must’ and its consequences. ‘I must be liked and accepted and do well or else I am no good.’ The consequences of that notion are listed here.

The dispute is: Is there any evidence that I’m no good, also, what’s wrong with being alone?.

The rational response is: There is no evidence that I’m good or bad, these are all or nothing cognitive distortions (lies) everyone uses to attack themself (depression) and others. I have associates whom I enjoy building relationships with, one of whom is always with me, and that’s me! Unconditional love is always with me.