The Person Behind The Mask

Chuck Close + bunny

I feel frustrated that Joyce didn’t answer my call on Valentines Day. Or call me back. Or show an interest or concern in my life previously.

I feel depressed. I am experiencing more anxiety. I feel hurt, embarrassed and ashamed, I feel guilt as if I’d done something wrong.

I have been avoiding social contact and procrastinating, I have been unassertive and overeating.

I must do well and win the approval of others or else I am no good.

Is there any evidence that I’m no good?

There is no evidence for that belief, others likes and dislikes only describe them. If I have been led to believe Joyce likes me when she doesn’t then that is her preference for a dishonest and unforthcoming way of conducting relationship, I don't have secret mind powers that control others actions. Joyce is a highly trained and practised predator, selling houses by being nice and pretending to like people then dumping them when they don’t qualify. A specialist in conditional relationship.

Now, I just feel sad and annoyed and disappointed.

I plan on talking to strangers and asking for what I want, I have tackled unpleasant tasks without needless delay, I have been exercising, and also removing predatory relationships like my dentist who overcharges folks such as seniors on limited income and switched from grocers who overcharge everyone.