Satisfaction By Any Means Possible
I found that yesterday after having read:
‘Intense feelings of loneliness and the fear of the unknown when in times of healing from trauma’ that was caused, for me, by continuous childhood trauma, that I don’t really have those symptoms as intensely anymore, and that when I did experience some of them recently along with intense weird dreams it was due to the situation of having had a physical trauma (a homeless man threw me down breaking my hip and elbow) in the present, and I was very concerned with the outcomes for the future.
Outcomes like walking again and living independently. So, situational and reasonable concerns.
I no longer suffer from that former mental illness, the legacy of a batshit single parent and siblings, I discovered.
This conclusion was suggested by a trauma psychotherapist I was referred to after the recent incident.
She found no evidence of PTSD, which is defined by very specific criteria. She and I fired each other, quite lovingly.
The self helping things that I did in the past were the ones I learned from therapy and also suggested in the article on how to heal from childhood trauma, were very effective. Over time, slowly, I hardly noticed the powerful effects.
Strategies such as:
- walking away 1. toxic family members 2. ( I didn’t lose them, they lost me)
- stubbornly refusing to be manipulated by the Fear, Obligation and Guilt (FOG) of narcissists
- walking away from toxic sex partners
- walking away from toxic casual non-relationships that hunt empathetic people like moi in my daily life
- talking to strangers I find interesting
- asking for what I want to gain satisfactions
- having frank conversation and
- willingness to compromise in existing relationships
- practising emotional hygiene using REBT tools
- exercising
- eating healthily
- enjoying solitude
- enjoying hobbies like building/maintaining computers and cooking
- practising skill sets like driving
- enjoying my best friend who is always with me: Me.
- laughing at my jokes and my farts
- being involved with my profession by making art by any means possible
- publishing my writing and my Fine Art
- upgrading my tools and skill sets
- dealing with unpleasant tasks without needless delay
- seeking satisfaction as the purpose of my life
