My purpose as a lonely survivor of a narcisst parent, had been to supply the narcissist with, well, narcissist supply. Since they have no, (whatever unhealthy people don’t have), self acceptance, conditional or otherwise, they seek it from trophy children or trophy partners.
A form of lonely slavery, “the longer I know you the lonelier I get” I once thought of my very covert narcissist x-wife. And full of fear, absolutely programmed to believe its all my fault.
So I went to art school.
Do you find xyz satisfying? Then do that. Satisfaction will grant you high tolerance of frustration that we all need to succeed in anything. This is the deprogramming of the slavery of the employer a basic income of emotional life support.