23 hours ago❦Depression❦❦Depression (religion) is the de-valuing❦ ❦Of self = anxiety❦ ❦Of others = hate❦ ❦Of the universe = universal anxiety and hate❦ ❦Cure❦ ❦Ignore that shit and focus on choices for satisfactions❦1 min read1 min read
Dec 2“She’s Dead to Me” — Tony SopranoI woke up today after processing in my sleep the watching of season 6 of the Sopranos last night. The show is a study of an undervaluing parent and the effect it has on the kids. Essentially being slapped multiple times daily by your primary caregiver. Creating an emotional orphan. …Narcissistic Parents2 min readNarcissistic Parents2 min read
Nov 25Coffee with a former Tibetan NunAnd then she said I’m busy I have to go… Coffee Shop Cult Recruiters do all the things ordinary folks do to seduce, i.e. love bombing. I have never felt so interesting before. I never wanted to help anyone as much before. She was really well trained. It didn’t kick…2 min read2 min read
Nov 18Indentured ServantsWith a simple statement, found on a psychologist’s site, ”They have no empathy so they can’t change” things fell into place. The ‘things’ are episodes of abuse from my sibling family where they had charmingly convinced me that they had changed and they hadn’t. My yearning and frustration abated. My…4 min read4 min read
Nov 15The YouTube Facebook ProblemBetter to have a soiled solid gold toilet as aesthetics are the moon to the narcissist. — They (narcissists) have no empathy (perhaps no or low oxytocin from a dysfunctional hypothalamus) so they can’t change so you will always be considered wrong. Expecting a narcissist to change is irrational and creates frustration. Oxytocin is associated with trust, sexual arousal and relationship building, it’s sometimes referred to as…2 min read2 min read
Nov 11I bought a pair of Zeiss lenses from Brass Monocle on 16 Ave.I bought a pair of Zeiss lenses from Brass Monocle on 16 Ave. in 2017 because they use the advanced computer system of Zeiss measurement of pupillary distance and had them installed into expensive Ray Ban frames that I bought at www.glenmorevisioncenter.com. Combined cost $1600.00 and went back regularly for…3 min read3 min read
Nov 6Making Self Valuing ChangesThe deeply ingrained notion that I am undervalued because I am defective is damn hard to shake. It’s been a slow process. — What is the situation that you are upset about? Answer: I’ve been making changes in my life. …4 min read4 min read
Oct 22I took a class in art school…It was a writing course to prepare me for grad school, to write scholarly papers. The prof told me I was too creative to be harnessed to those rules, and to skip grad school altogether. …2 min read2 min read
Oct 12Empathy Demands ItEmpathy is caused by a hormone oxytocin. Created in the brain by the hypothalamus “As oxytocin is associated with trust, sexual arousal and relationship building, it’s sometimes referred to as the ‘love’ hormone’ or ‘cuddle chemical.’ Oxytocin levels also increase when you’re hugging someone and when you’re experiencing an orgasm.” …2 min read2 min read